Once upon a time, I had two sons,
Forrest Cullen Hallmark and Bryce Carlson Hallmark
They were happy guys.
In 1994, they died in a car accident.
Today, January 18th, 2010, would have been Forrest's 20th birthday.
I feel the need to share photos of him to honor his short, but
incredibly happy and full little life.
Forrest at age one - he thought he looked pretty dapper in this hat.
This was part of his Halloween costume one year,
but he wore it ALL the time.
He would carry a book around with him, "Pocket Guide to Dinosaurs"
and correct other people's pronunciations and give them important
facts about dinosaurs.
He might have been a paleontologist one day....
He loved these jammies! They were his favorites and he wore them long after they fit him.
It was taken the week before he died.
We were hiking up Aspen Vista with Cullen and Bryce,
my niece Leila, my mom and dad and me.
It was Father's Day and Forrest had snacks for everyone in his backpack.
His life (their lives) were too short.
I still don't know how people get through something
like the loss of a child.
I do know that it IS one day at a time.
You learn to live in the moment and appreciate every, little thing.
And you cry......a lot......
Forrest, I wish you a Happy Twentieth Birthday today,
even though you are not here to celebrate it.
We all love and miss you,
but you will always live in our hearts